Let we list it all:

1. Rejected in high school when confide the love feeling at her home. I can understand that I’m no-one compare to her,
2. After 4 years, she comes to my life and I try to say my feeling but rejected again because she is traumatic of her previous romance. May be I come to her life at the wrong time,
3. She is falling in love with her office-mate. She is dumping me,
4. After 6-8 months, come back again to my life because wanna do revenge to her office mate. It’s my chance to be with her, though I know the reason,
5. I catch that she is cheating in her room. There is her ex-boyfriend chitchat snob in her room while I’m travelling. I just accept her the way she is even if she is not virgin anymore. Just don’t wanna lose her again,
6. Read her draft-email in her inbox, evidently she just used me to get her revenge. I’m understand that she is unstable,
7. Trying to propose her to her mom but she have no willingness to help to negotiate to her family. Ok maybe we need time, 
8. Cancel the big trip we plan since 8 months ago and she spends the intimate-night with magician. I’ve no right to angry because we’ve been separated, and I try to help her
9. Spend the 2 nights in Bali. She keeps ignoring me, 
10. She confess that she is already aware to her attitude, but also confess that she is falling love with a photographer. It’s fine with me, just trying to help.
11. She keeps giving false alarm to me while flirting with photographer. It’s unaccaptable because she must have commitment and stop her manner acting like a slut,
12. She cancel the 3 days ESQ training. I’ve been preparing this in a month. In hope that she stop her hunting for love habit

And I’m wondering so far, what makes me able to standing still until today if it’s not because of something called Love?

Yeah, we need to move on..but should I need to pay some revenge? maybe ruining both of their life?

I’m not an evil, nor a saint. Just a fragile human.